I'm Sophie, seventeen years old and a type 1 diabetic. I was apprehensive about the prospect of starting a blog at first, mainly due to not knowing what to write about; however, writing on this topic (my diabetes) doesn't seem as daunting. Through writing about my own experiences (and believe me when I say that there have been plenty of 'not so perfect' experiences!), I hope I can remove some of the fears and anxieties that diabetes can bring, and that my blog can help other people both with diabetes, or who know someone with diabetes. In my blog, I'm going to try and find a balance in talking about both past events in my life, including the spanish exchange, GCSE exams and several (rather dramatic) holidays, but also keep a "diary/journal" of my life at the moment, in the run-up to AS levels and university choices.
Even today, approaching my diabetes' "ten year birthday" (in May, and a happy excuse to eat cake!), I am constantly learning and have by no means got amazing blood sugar control - in fact, I write this now on the back of a failed set change and 21.4 blood sugar reading... therefore please forgive me if some of the writing structure/quality on this first post leaves much to be desired! And even now, I often feel very insecure in myself due to my diabetes. When things are out of control, it can often make you feel that it is you who is at fault, and it is very de-moralising when all your efforts to try and maintain control come to nothing. Irregardless of what the "laws of science" say, Diabetes does have a mind of its own! From one day to the next Mr. Diabetes can view the carb in my morning wheatabix as either the equivalent of a lettuce leaf or a whole tub of "ben and jerry's", causing many despairing moments at my mid-morning BG test, where my poor metre is the scapegoat for my frustration (to put it lightly!)
Nevertheless, I try to take the positives from having diabetes, and although it may seem hard to believe at times, there are actually some positives! The main thing I have leant is not to take anything for granted: I give 100% in everything I do and I never see anything as a given. It has also given me an outlook on life that isn't very "teenager-y", so to speak. I've never really obsessed over what seems to be ground-breaking news for some people I know: "so and so liked my profile picture, this is the best news of my life!" In all seriousness, this was a real conversation, and it does put everything into perspective! Things like this, in addition to watching peers who go out all the time, drink loads etc... do remind me that, at the end of the day I can't be a "normal" teenager; althoug I am not sure I would even want to be if the former comment is classed as "normal"...! I think it is because, in trying to live my life to the full and knowing how fragile it it, I don't want to become preocupied over things that, in the greater scheme of things, are not important, are not going to change your life (unless, of course, the girl who made the above comment ends up marrying the boy who liked her profile picture; however, I think you'd have to be either very reckless or very rich to put money on that!)
Ultimatey, my aim in doing this blog is to encourage people to talk about their experiences with diabetes. I hope that by doing this, and sharing stories of my own journey with diabetes, including (no pun intended!) all its highs and lows, that some of the struggles that people face with diabetes will become less isolating and that they will find it easier to cope. I have always found comfort in knowing that there are other people out there who are able to empathise with me, when I am struggling the most; I think, mainly, just knowing that I am not alone.
Thanks for reading, and I will follow up in a few days with my first proper blog entry!